Falling out of a long term relationship was one of the most honest things I’ve ever done in my life. Leaving someone that cared for me still was something that was foreign to me. Discovering my own truths has been, in two words: growing pains. Acknowledging my own faults has been humbling and empowering at the same time. Realizing I can create my own future is downright scary. Making the decision to remain open and giving someone a chance was one of the bad decisions I’ve made by far. Then having relations with someone I had no real feelings for was honestly, my attempt to believe something that wasn’t there..that is a lesson learned. Now with my own time has surprisingly left me extremely busy on my grind chasing paper and schoolwork. I have no idea what I’m doing right now.. Besides keeping my guard up because I know I do not need a man to make me happy. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I read a quote that said “People were created to be loved  and things were created to be used.  The reason why the world is in chaos is because things are being loved and people are being used.”  I’ve come to a realization as of late, that love, for all intents and purposes, is absolutely not what we grew up thinking it was.  Love is not a feeling, nor an emotion, but a verb.  Love is an ACTION.  An action in which people misinterpret and misunderstand on a daily basis. Partly because we are programmed to believe that we are a body, have a soul, and feel love.  When in reality, or at least in my reality, its that I am a soul, have a body, and give love.  But that clarity didn’t come to me until I was faced with my own mortality, a battle which has reared it’s ugly head, again. I’ve always been a firm believer in the power of the law of attraction – Be everything you want to find in a partner, and be the change you want to see around you. It’s comforting knowing that you personify love to the fullest.  I see that, and I haven’t even known you very long.

Honestly.